My name is Jenna. I am just like everyone else in this world, trying to find where I belong and who I am meant to be. The past seven years, I have struggled with anorexia, bulimia, binge eating and over exercising from one point to another. Mostly though, I have been anorexic, and that is what my official medical diagnoses is. Technically though, I believe I more classify for EDNOS, which is "eating disorder not otherwise specified". Regardless, on top of that, I have also struggled with full-fledge bipolar disorder.
In my years of triumph and struggle, I have learned a lot and have had to grow up a lot. I try to look back at it all as a gift. How, you may ask? Well, instead of seeing my experience as torture and a curse(which don't get me wrong, it has been), I look at all I've learned and all I have to offer, what I can do with my knowledge for good things now! The people I can help, the awareness I can bring. There's a lot of good that has come from all the darkness.
So, that being said, why do I write this blog? Well, there's many reasons, really. Mainly, I just want to bring awareness to the dark, secret side of eating disorders and the lives of those who live them. There's a lot of misconceptions out there on this topic and I want to try and change that, even just for one person. I want people who are struggling to know they aren't alone in all the craziness, because I know sometime it can feel that way. Though, as a warning, there may be times I am blunt and honest about the things I experience and have experienced and if you have an eating disorder and are worried about being triggered, this may not be the blog for you. I will try and disclose if I find a blog to be a trigger possibility, but everyone has different triggers and I may not always get it. So, just be aware! Also, I am an adult, and some of the things I experience are not something I recommend preteens to read about.
But back to the main point, I write this as an out for myself, as awareness for others, and as a story of my life recovering from my past and learning to live for my future.
So, I hope you'll join me on my journey of waking the sun to get out of all the darkness I've been living it, on my quest to find out what "beautiful" really is. And I hope if you do read this, you get something out of it.
<3
In my years of triumph and struggle, I have learned a lot and have had to grow up a lot. I try to look back at it all as a gift. How, you may ask? Well, instead of seeing my experience as torture and a curse(which don't get me wrong, it has been), I look at all I've learned and all I have to offer, what I can do with my knowledge for good things now! The people I can help, the awareness I can bring. There's a lot of good that has come from all the darkness.
So, that being said, why do I write this blog? Well, there's many reasons, really. Mainly, I just want to bring awareness to the dark, secret side of eating disorders and the lives of those who live them. There's a lot of misconceptions out there on this topic and I want to try and change that, even just for one person. I want people who are struggling to know they aren't alone in all the craziness, because I know sometime it can feel that way. Though, as a warning, there may be times I am blunt and honest about the things I experience and have experienced and if you have an eating disorder and are worried about being triggered, this may not be the blog for you. I will try and disclose if I find a blog to be a trigger possibility, but everyone has different triggers and I may not always get it. So, just be aware! Also, I am an adult, and some of the things I experience are not something I recommend preteens to read about.
But back to the main point, I write this as an out for myself, as awareness for others, and as a story of my life recovering from my past and learning to live for my future.
So, I hope you'll join me on my journey of waking the sun to get out of all the darkness I've been living it, on my quest to find out what "beautiful" really is. And I hope if you do read this, you get something out of it.
<3
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